Confusion

                                   

      I never quite understood why people went from happiness to going from changing their
lives into someone that I didn't know. My emotions are going from highs to lows. I hate trying
to decide what life choices may bring upon me because that fear of getting there and not knowing
what exactly to expect it leaves me this dry feeling. The feeling that I can't branch away from it
keeps lingering inside of me. I want to be able to get it throw it out somewhere far, so that I will
never be able to look behind again. That makes me believe that the reality of life that has been
created isn't but a load of unexplainable things. I never wanted my life to be harassed or to be
able to be expected from other people and many times I feel that it is. I get the urge of wanting
to throw away the part of me that I can't get away from. I miss the simple days of life where
I didn't have to wake up and wonder what do I need to do today. I could live life without
expecting. Just doing that very thing.